Monday column: The lightning in my head

Something went “sweesh” in my mind when I woke up this morning and everything was as bright as the midday sun even though all the curtains were closed.

I shook my head several times but the light that descended from nowhere could not go away. It took more than a minute for the unexplained brightness to go away. I struggled out of bed and every step was a careful one until I completed the usual waking up routine.

As I was having my breakfast, I wondered what it was. I could not think of anything that would trigger the unexplained occurrence. Since I did not have any rational explanation, I thought the sun decided to rise in my head first before it made its climb out from the horizon.

I also decided to continue with my morning routine as usual not letting the strange phenomenon takes effect on me. I went for coffee to clear my head and the strong smell of caffeine that wafted from the cafe helped clear my head.

But the thought never left my mind. Minutes later, as the caffeine streamed through my system, I decided to rationalize what happened to me that morning. Was it a mental lightning that exploded in my brains?

If it was, then why? Perhaps there was a storm in my mind that wanted to break away from the usual routine in my thoughts. If it was then again, why? As I try to reason out, my thoughts drifted to all the turmoil that were in my subconscious.

It was their way of demanding attention. In other words, the lightning was a mental explosion that told me to get my routine back in track. Perhaps my expectations were out of order and I had too many of them and threatened to explode.

The coffee tamed and straightened out my thoughts. From that moment, I decided to take a different course of my routine. I would not let my judgments boil over and overflow. Sometimes, even a simple decision, if we let it unresolved then it can lead to unpredictability.

With that in my mind, I decided to take a long walk on the beach to unwind all the knotted feelings. While passing through the rolling waves, I looked at the sun that was descending and made its way down the horizon.

Its light was fading but it was spreading golden streaks on the sky above it. While looking at it, the skyline reflected what was in my mind. Or rather, what should be in my mind, instead of that blinding flash I had in the morning.

The walk did the world of good for me. When I finished, I walked back to my car. Before driving off, I took the last look of the horizon. The sun was already buried at a spot between the land and the sky but the golden light was still there having the last fling with the horizon.

I went back home and tried to recap the events of the day. The lightning in my head that woke me up early in the morning had a message for me.  The message was clear. It was asking me to stay away from unnecessary stress that has no connection with the reality.